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Forum: Prayer Requests and Answers
Praise & Thanksgiving!!!
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“Hear, O LORD, and answer me, or I am poor and needy…..Have mercy on me O Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your servant, for to you O Lord, I lift up my soul…. Give me a sign of your goodness…” Psalm 86:1, 3-4,17.
For months since I took the NAVLE exam, this has been my prayer. I groveled, pleaded, & begged the Lord for His favor regarding my board exam’s result. There were days that I couldn’t even bear to think about it, because to do so would make me have panic attacks. As January rolled to a close, I grew more & more anxious about it. I keep on looking back at the first 2 failures, and fear fills me so much that I can even taste & feel it. At times I was so convinced that I didn’t do well enough, for I know I could’ve done more. I would think about all the things I could’ve done & shouldn’t have done that might have made a lot of difference in the result. And often times, I end up so scared I’d cry all night.
The other night, I worked myself up to the worst dread I’ve ever felt that I started considering thoughts that aren’t pleasing to God. I was so wrought in fear that I thought if I didn’t pass again, I wouldn’t want to live anymore. I shared this to my friends and they comforted & prayed with me. But still, I was fearful. Nonetheless, I continue to look to God for mercy & asked for foriveness for my failing faith & unworthy thoughts. I sook refuge in His Word & promises, believing His heart even when I can’t seem to see His hands.
Today, I got home & found only 1 letter in my mailbox. It’s from the Veterinary Medical Board, I know very well that it contains the NAVLE SCORE REPORT, but I couldn’t get myself to open it. It took me some hours, praying for God to strengthen me, for the Holy Spirit to guard my heart & mind. I was talking to my friends online, the same people who comforted & prayed with me the other night, and told them that I have the result but couldn’t get myself to open & read it. They all encouraged me & committed to hold me in prayer that very moment. It took me awhile, but with trembling hands, I opened it & took the paper out. I Had to take a very deep breath & uttered a prayer for God’s mercy before I read it. I barely scanned the letter, & my eyes rushed to the mark : PASS. I was crying & laughing & praising God all at the same time! I was, & even now, bouncing off the walls. I could hardly believe it, I have to read the letter over & over again. I must’ve waken up my neighbors with all my shouts of rejoicing.
Indeed the Lord is gracious and merciful. I know I didn’t deserve to pass, coz I know I didn’t study for it as much as I should. I know that I have to depend on God to work a miracle for me to pass this one. And in His mercy & grace, He did! Truly, the Lord is good & delights in blessing His children. Just as when I was beginning wonder if the Lord will show me mercy & grace, He brought me joy that I may be reminded of His love. When I was ready to doubt God’s purpose in bringing me here, He showed me tremendous goodness to remind me that He is faithful to His promises. As I was beginning to wonder if He is mindful of what I’m going through, He gave me this special gift to remind me that He is more than that, that He is in control of everything, that He is sovereign & powerful, the God who work wonders, perform miracles. Just when I’m about to be overcome with grief, He turned my mourning into dancing & rejoicing! My heart is bursting with thanksgiving and praise. At the same time I’m humbled as I am reminded by a word of a friend the other night “it’s not about you…it’s about God working His way in you. Trust Him”. And indeed, when I was all worked up about “my” shortcomings, God showed Himself all powerful and able to do immeasurably more than I can ever ask or imagine. That He who began a good work in me is faithful to bring it to completion. I am awed at His goodness, mercy & faithfulness…but most of all I am in awe at His tremendous love & patience with me. I give all the glory and honor to Him for this great blessing. Oh, that the LOrd’s name alone be glorified!!!!
Thank you for standing in faith & prayer with me. Thank you for comforting me, consoling me when I was fearful & in doubt. Thank you for journeying with me. Share my joy and join me in praising our wonderful, loving & sovereign God. To Him alone be the glory!
“Shout with joy to God all the earth! Sing the glory of His name; make His praise glorious! Say to God, how awesome are your deeds! So great is your power….all the earth bows down to you; they sing praise to you they sing praise to your name.” PSALM 66:1-4
Sole Deo Gloria,
didz
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